The old me. By Nat
Do you know how hard it is to get up
When the energy just isn’t there
And sure I go outside and chill
But there’s no reason for me to care
I spend hours just thinking
I spend hours sitting doing nothing
Wondering whether I’m going to amount to anything
And sometimes it feels like I can’t move
I know the struggle is normal
I shouldn’t be sat feeling guilty
But I hate what I’ve become
Sometimes I miss the old me
These years don’t seem to get easier
And I wish I could rewind
Life is fast-forwarding
My old life is being left behind
And I wish I could get it back
I’m leaving it all back then
Because I can’t find the old me
Shattered – By Nat
Shattered… Is how the world is seen and how I view it
Shattered is how I feel when I have to find a meaning to my life
Shattered is my heart beating when I try to care
And I feel alone even when people are there.
My life feels broken and I don’t know how I feel
I feel fragile and cracked by simple things
Life is spiralling out of control and I’m losing my grip
And now all I feel is that I’m on a sunken ship
I just want to feel good
I used to feel good about myself but I don’t…
Now I just feel like a waste of space.
A waste of a person.
And I don’t know why…
It hurts as I feel myself breaking
A broken version of myself
I guess I’m truly shattered
Beyond repair
